Can we save ourselves from the ones we're becoming?
its weird. when i see him in school, the relationship is okay, as long as hes not being weird. its weird, i cant remember him ever being completely insane around me before like a month ago. we used to talk a lot and it was cool, but lately its like we dont really have conversations. i start to wonder why im still in it, but then well hang out outside of school and ill start wondering why i was doubting it in the first place. i think what it is is that on the phone, we dont really have good conversations anymore, and in school there isnt time for it. so out of school, its like it used to be. i dont have any idea. but i also havent really felt like talking when we're on the phone. i can sit there for 10 minutes straight without saying a word.
i need spontaneity is what it is. i need to not know whats going to happen tomorrow. i need it to be fun, and to do things that make me laugh, and things i can look forward to with him. its gotten monotone. i still like him, i think, but i get so bored with relationships after a while.
how can i fix it?
