THIS IS SO ADORABLE

its almost senior year....yikes

Hey everyone i just want you to know that you should go on rutholsonphoto.com and click on the senior challenge and vote for me!!!!! :] because i need every vote i can get. I can win cool stuff! Pleeeeease? Okay fine I'll give you a quarter. And then post on your facebook for everyone else to vote! Make it a group! A fan page! Wooooooo!

Anyway. Senior year is upon us. Does anyone else feel a little bit excited?

Half time goes by, suddenly you’re wise; another blink of an eye, 67 is gone

The sun is getting high, we're moving on...

It's the end of junior year (was it supposed to go by so fast???). I can't believe it. I feel like a senior that should be graduating now, due to my two classes that were like 95% seniors, and the fact that if I wanted to go to college right now I'd be more on track than half the kids graduating this year. I'm pretty much done with school.

I've jumped right in to being an NAHS chair for next year. I'm excited to actually be in a position to do something. (Andrea, if you feel I'm being a little TOO involved, just let me know.) This year we never had organization or got anything done. I'm hoping this upcoming year can change the reputation of being a useless organization, and make us someone that actually does stuff. I want it to be something to be in.

On a different note, my mom hung up on the counselor the other day... She told me for months I could do AP Statistics as special enrollment at a community college, and have it count for college credit. Then, she decided to look into it or something and decided that no, I can't. So I suppose I'm taking consumer math next year. Wonderful. (I am in yearbook and acc humanities though. Yay!)

I got told by a girl who just came back to work for the summer that I look like a sophomore, and Brittany Rees looks older than me. She wasn't trying to be mean but seriously, how did she expect me to take that? I suppose I should just brush that aside, seeing as normally people think I'm older than I am, but it really made me take a hit on my self-esteem.

Oh, well.

Everybody thinks they know my name and where I've been

I was once a young boy
Never fled too far from home
Now I've lost my name
And misplaced my home
I retreat back to places
Where I am someone they love
Bright lights serving justice up from above

Everybody thinks they know my name
And where I've been
I've got news for you that'll turn your head
I'm not exactly who you think that I've been all along
Shut your fuckin' mouth and sing my song

I always knew I would be the one
To make you believe
(To make you believe)
In sleeping in castles with no guards
But all the pleasure it brings me

I flee from situations
When I know that I've done wrong
But face to face with faith
He strings me along
I'll shoot for the moon
So long as you raise your arms too
My marksmanship is perfect
My aim is true

Hitting targets
Marked their rage all over mother's glow
Smoking out the world atop my throne
I take the names of victims
That I've gunned down on my own
I please with love and ease
So I aim for gold

I always knew I would be the one
To make you believe
(To make you believe)
In sleeping in castles with no guards
But all the pleasure it brings me

I always knew I would be the one
To make you believe
In sleeping in castles with no guards
But all the pleasure it brings me [x2]

I was once a young boy
Never fled too far from home
Now I've lost my name
And I'm all alone



It's kind of depressing that I don't use this anymore. I don't know what I would say. I don't really have anything TO say, other than to recount my day. Which would be a diary entry, hence pointless.

Sometimes I miss people. I just get so fed up when I make the effort and nothing comes out of it, so I pretty much don't try anymore. I'm basically content with the people I do have, the ones I still talk to. I do miss a few of you though. You all seem so detached and wrapped up in your own personal lives that aren't mine anymore.

My dad's always trying to get a new job in other places anyway.

Break away from everybody, break away from everything

If you can't stand the way this place is, take yourself to higher places

So it would be wonderful if i could just let go of things that don't matter. People I dislike, in particular. I know what I SHOULD do. I SHOULD let bygones be bygones, and let people I dislike live their lives and I live mine, with no confrontation or held grudges. Just get along in peace, maybe even attempt to resolve things. HOWEVER. My personality is such that when I dislike someone, I get actually angry every time they are mentioned or hear their name. I'm vindictive so that I wish everyone else hated them too. It would be wonderful if they would just up and move to Zimbabwe. And the thought of resolving things with them disgusts me.

But that's unrealistic and frankly childish, so I'm attempting to resolve to just let them be and not interact, therefore no confrontation. No drama. I hate drama. You can't avoid drama when you seek out confrontation. I should probably be less of a bitch.



But on the other hand, I have better things to worry about. So maybe I should just focus on graduating and moving on, leaving the people who anger me behind...probably only to find new people who anger me. But maybe by that point I'll be capable of dealing with them without wanting to punch their face in.

It's a start.