today was quite entertaining. remember last year when justin ghannam (aka fatty gross disgusting pig etc etc) would grab my ass every day at lunch?
today i got my revenge.
he wouldnt let go of toms backpack when we were trying to walk so i was like can i just kick him in the balls and tom was like sure
i should fucking play soccer or something, i NAILED him. on the bus tyra (who sits in front of him in english 6th hour, the hour right after i did it) said he was in pain and she was like why? and he said that he just got kicked in the balls harder than he ever did in his life.
so, therefore, i am now at peace. but still scarred for life. thanks for that, justin ghannam.
amanda, i hate your maybe-cousin.
oh btw tom has to get his hair cut for rotc (his mom is making him) but it wont be thattttt bad although bad enough. i suppose hes doing that right now. he asked me to not break up with him in front of a lot of people if i was going to, and i was like HOW SHALLOW DO YOU THINK I AM??? but...anyways...his mom will probably owe him for that, so hell be able to go over andreas saturday. probably. hopefully.
that is all.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
you wont find me here
the place that you expected me to be
so he was in the bathroom. why couldnt he tell me that straight off? i dont count that as skipping because i do that too. sarah is prolly mad at me because i told him shes the one who said he wasnt there, but he wouldnt believe me if i didnt have proof that someone who he knows knew he wasnt there told me. so im not THAT sorry about it, but i am sorry he bitched you out. is travis mad at me? thats the first time hes ever asked to talk to me alone. =\ idk i like him hes nice idk if he likes me though. i know jake doesnt like me, known that for a while, but todays the first day he ever actually told me to my face that he doesnt like me very much. idc though, not crazy about him so whooo cares. =] not meee
mom met tom today, didnt really say much about him other than his hair is almost as interesting as andreas. i thought that was mean, it IS all the same length. ==] i like it. i didnt mind missing the bus either, i got to talk to travis and spend wayy more time with tom. i think todays the longest amount of time weve ever spent together at school because of late start and getting picked up like half an hour after school. hmm. avery was acting civil today cuz he was sober, i dont like him when hes high though, at all. eric kid in ss is getting annoying. ive been talking to kara owens more lol i think thats a bit odddd but shes nice to me so w/eee.
tom told me all his friends are complaning about me cuz i dont like him smoking or skipping or getting high (what i dont get is why, since he doesnt listen to anything but the last one). i dont care though, i dont like a lot of them so yeahh.....if by friends he means avery i care less. averys a dumbshit. anyways, this is how i am, so get over it. i asked if he was gonna break up with me then and he said "FUCK no!!" all insulted so i suppose theyll just have to get over it.
im apathetic.
so he was in the bathroom. why couldnt he tell me that straight off? i dont count that as skipping because i do that too. sarah is prolly mad at me because i told him shes the one who said he wasnt there, but he wouldnt believe me if i didnt have proof that someone who he knows knew he wasnt there told me. so im not THAT sorry about it, but i am sorry he bitched you out. is travis mad at me? thats the first time hes ever asked to talk to me alone. =\ idk i like him hes nice idk if he likes me though. i know jake doesnt like me, known that for a while, but todays the first day he ever actually told me to my face that he doesnt like me very much. idc though, not crazy about him so whooo cares. =] not meee
mom met tom today, didnt really say much about him other than his hair is almost as interesting as andreas. i thought that was mean, it IS all the same length. ==] i like it. i didnt mind missing the bus either, i got to talk to travis and spend wayy more time with tom. i think todays the longest amount of time weve ever spent together at school because of late start and getting picked up like half an hour after school. hmm. avery was acting civil today cuz he was sober, i dont like him when hes high though, at all. eric kid in ss is getting annoying. ive been talking to kara owens more lol i think thats a bit odddd but shes nice to me so w/eee.
tom told me all his friends are complaning about me cuz i dont like him smoking or skipping or getting high (what i dont get is why, since he doesnt listen to anything but the last one). i dont care though, i dont like a lot of them so yeahh.....if by friends he means avery i care less. averys a dumbshit. anyways, this is how i am, so get over it. i asked if he was gonna break up with me then and he said "FUCK no!!" all insulted so i suppose theyll just have to get over it.
im apathetic.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
what the fuck is going on
"cassie " (4:04:55 PM): what did he lie about?
"cassie " (4:04:59 PM): jsut the skipping
"cassie " (4:05:01 PM): or something more
wexlackxamity (4:05:09 PM): are u talking about yesterday?
"cassie " (4:05:20 PM): the entry thing at the top
wexlackxamity (4:05:35 PM): he lied about doing pot with carl, i had told carl that if they did it i would leave, but then he said he didnt and i couldnt tell if he was lying or not
"cassie " (4:05:47 PM): oh
"cassie " (4:05:47 PM): wow
wexlackxamity (4:05:49 PM): and then last night he apologized after i posted that, promised all sorts of stuff
wexlackxamity (4:05:55 PM): promised again that he was done w skipping
wexlackxamity (4:06:31 PM): then today carl told me tom was planning on skipping 6th hour. but then when i saw him b4 6th hour he said he wasnt, that was avery, and hes not skipping like he told me then we sort of got in a lil fight
wexlackxamity (4:06:40 PM): cuz i told him thank god, i didnt wanna have to consider dumping him
wexlackxamity (4:06:48 PM): and he was like wtf ud have dumped me for skipping
wexlackxamity (4:07:07 PM): and i was like no, i would have THOUGHT about doing it for lying to me and breaking ur promise
wexlackxamity (4:07:11 PM): so he got pissed and le ft
wexlackxamity (4:07:19 PM): but after 6th hour he was fine and said he understood
wexlackxamity (4:07:22 PM): but he was kind of cold
"cassie " (4:07:24 PM): wow. major drama.
wexlackxamity (4:07:26 PM): like literally, cold
wexlackxamity (4:07:31 PM): and i wasnt sure
"cassie " (4:07:34 PM): at least your day was exciting
wexlackxamity (4:07:37 PM): and my friend jenna has 6th hour w him
wexlackxamity (4:07:42 PM): and she said she didnt see him
wexlackxamity (4:07:45 PM): but thats the capa classs
wexlackxamity (4:07:50 PM): so i think its pretty chaotic
wexlackxamity (4:07:50 PM): but
wexlackxamity (4:07:51 PM): idk
"cassie " (4:07:58 PM): wait, so you aren't sure if he skipped?
wexlackxamity (4:07:59 PM): so im trying to get hold of katie cuz her bfs in that clas
wexlackxamity (4:08:00 PM): right
wexlackxamity (4:08:04 PM): im not sure if he did or not
wexlackxamity (4:08:09 PM): he said he didnt
"cassie " (4:08:12 PM): oh
wexlackxamity (4:08:22 PM): and he talked about talking to his 6th hour teacher about his grade
wexlackxamity (4:08:30 PM): but it was pretty general and he could have been making it up
wexlackxamity (4:08:43 PM): so im trying to get hold of katie so she can ask jake if tom was there
wexlackxamity (4:08:50 PM): and if he wasnt....i have no idea what ill do
"cassie " (4:09:08 PM): hmm
im crazy.
i was walking down the hall today and i was in a reallly weird mood and some tall guy in front of me comes up to this kid and goes HEY EDWIN! WHATS UP!? and i craccccckeddd upp and i was laughing for like a minute and a half before tom realized it
and then he was like what the hell are u laughing at and i was like WHO THE HELL NAMES THEIR KID EDWIN!?
lmfaoooo i couldnt stop laughing and idkkk y
thats my day. fuck it.
"cassie " (4:04:59 PM): jsut the skipping
"cassie " (4:05:01 PM): or something more
wexlackxamity (4:05:09 PM): are u talking about yesterday?
"cassie " (4:05:20 PM): the entry thing at the top
wexlackxamity (4:05:35 PM): he lied about doing pot with carl, i had told carl that if they did it i would leave, but then he said he didnt and i couldnt tell if he was lying or not
"cassie " (4:05:47 PM): oh
"cassie " (4:05:47 PM): wow
wexlackxamity (4:05:49 PM): and then last night he apologized after i posted that, promised all sorts of stuff
wexlackxamity (4:05:55 PM): promised again that he was done w skipping
wexlackxamity (4:06:31 PM): then today carl told me tom was planning on skipping 6th hour. but then when i saw him b4 6th hour he said he wasnt, that was avery, and hes not skipping like he told me then we sort of got in a lil fight
wexlackxamity (4:06:40 PM): cuz i told him thank god, i didnt wanna have to consider dumping him
wexlackxamity (4:06:48 PM): and he was like wtf ud have dumped me for skipping
wexlackxamity (4:07:07 PM): and i was like no, i would have THOUGHT about doing it for lying to me and breaking ur promise
wexlackxamity (4:07:11 PM): so he got pissed and le ft
wexlackxamity (4:07:19 PM): but after 6th hour he was fine and said he understood
wexlackxamity (4:07:22 PM): but he was kind of cold
"cassie " (4:07:24 PM): wow. major drama.
wexlackxamity (4:07:26 PM): like literally, cold
wexlackxamity (4:07:31 PM): and i wasnt sure
"cassie " (4:07:34 PM): at least your day was exciting
wexlackxamity (4:07:37 PM): and my friend jenna has 6th hour w him
wexlackxamity (4:07:42 PM): and she said she didnt see him
wexlackxamity (4:07:45 PM): but thats the capa classs
wexlackxamity (4:07:50 PM): so i think its pretty chaotic
wexlackxamity (4:07:50 PM): but
wexlackxamity (4:07:51 PM): idk
"cassie " (4:07:58 PM): wait, so you aren't sure if he skipped?
wexlackxamity (4:07:59 PM): so im trying to get hold of katie cuz her bfs in that clas
wexlackxamity (4:08:00 PM): right
wexlackxamity (4:08:04 PM): im not sure if he did or not
wexlackxamity (4:08:09 PM): he said he didnt
"cassie " (4:08:12 PM): oh
wexlackxamity (4:08:22 PM): and he talked about talking to his 6th hour teacher about his grade
wexlackxamity (4:08:30 PM): but it was pretty general and he could have been making it up
wexlackxamity (4:08:43 PM): so im trying to get hold of katie so she can ask jake if tom was there
wexlackxamity (4:08:50 PM): and if he wasnt....i have no idea what ill do
"cassie " (4:09:08 PM): hmm
i wish i felt like i could trust him right off the bat, but im so paranoid about being taken advantage of and lied to. i think i trust him this time. and if im right and he listened, i love him even more and ill believe him again.
im crazy.
i was walking down the hall today and i was in a reallly weird mood and some tall guy in front of me comes up to this kid and goes HEY EDWIN! WHATS UP!? and i craccccckeddd upp and i was laughing for like a minute and a half before tom realized it
and then he was like what the hell are u laughing at and i was like WHO THE HELL NAMES THEIR KID EDWIN!?
lmfaoooo i couldnt stop laughing and idkkk y
thats my day. fuck it.
Monday, March 31, 2008
we fight to lose
we fight for pride
ugh. i am so pissed ish right now. not neccessarily angry, just...frustrated. tom had lied to me on thursday, which i sort of knew and carl confirmed. and i cannot STAND being lied to. i dont care if i dont like the truth, i want to hear it anyways. so when i confronted him, he got angry at ME, he said. "im just gonna hang up if ur gonna be mad at me." that is so not fair. i think i have a right to be angry when im lied to. i think i deserve an explanation or at least, the very least, an apology. i dont know.
i dont like having to act like a fucking babysitter sometimes. like im his mother....do your hw. stop skipping. stop smoking. i dont want to lay down rules!! i like feeling in charge, i do not want to feel like a dictator. andrea told me about how she said she needs to skip again sometime soon, and she said when she mentioned it tom said something about maybe coming with her. WTF he promised me he wouldnt, said he didnt want to anymore cuz its not worth it. yeah its not worth it, is he just lying about knowing that too though? =\\\
i dont like feeling like i cant trust him. i want to know i can trust him to keep his word, but i havent really had that feeling since that time when he broke his promise, skipped with avery, and got caught. dlkfjf and he keeps not calling me when he says he will. kldsjflkdffffffffffff
i also think kate likes him again (still?). it doesnt really bug me if she does, but is she going to try and steal him away from me? it worries me. i know he loves me, but if i get him angry enough would he do something with kate for revenge? shes not stupid, if she wants to get him away from me she could proobablyy manage it sooner or later.
i just need to know hes not going to do anything to hurt me. words dont really say that. i dont know what will.
ugh. i am so pissed ish right now. not neccessarily angry, just...frustrated. tom had lied to me on thursday, which i sort of knew and carl confirmed. and i cannot STAND being lied to. i dont care if i dont like the truth, i want to hear it anyways. so when i confronted him, he got angry at ME, he said. "im just gonna hang up if ur gonna be mad at me." that is so not fair. i think i have a right to be angry when im lied to. i think i deserve an explanation or at least, the very least, an apology. i dont know.
i dont like having to act like a fucking babysitter sometimes. like im his mother....do your hw. stop skipping. stop smoking. i dont want to lay down rules!! i like feeling in charge, i do not want to feel like a dictator. andrea told me about how she said she needs to skip again sometime soon, and she said when she mentioned it tom said something about maybe coming with her. WTF he promised me he wouldnt, said he didnt want to anymore cuz its not worth it. yeah its not worth it, is he just lying about knowing that too though? =\\\
i dont like feeling like i cant trust him. i want to know i can trust him to keep his word, but i havent really had that feeling since that time when he broke his promise, skipped with avery, and got caught. dlkfjf and he keeps not calling me when he says he will. kldsjflkdffffffffffff
i also think kate likes him again (still?). it doesnt really bug me if she does, but is she going to try and steal him away from me? it worries me. i know he loves me, but if i get him angry enough would he do something with kate for revenge? shes not stupid, if she wants to get him away from me she could proobablyy manage it sooner or later.
i just need to know hes not going to do anything to hurt me. words dont really say that. i dont know what will.
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