"chelsea cole " (11:01:26 PM) : don't assume.
wexlackxamity (11:01:33 PM) : hmm
wexlackxamity (11:01:34 PM) : then idk
wexlackxamity (11:01:36 PM) : but
wexlackxamity (11:01:46 PM) : has she always disliked me and jsut refused to tell me ?
"chelsea cole " (11:03:14 PM) : you need to stop assuming things, liz.
wexlackxamity (11:03:41 PM) : can you explain that?
wexlackxamity (11:03:42 PM) : like
wexlackxamity (11:03:53 PM) : im 100% sure that was directed at me
"chelsea cole " (11:03:57 PM) : you assume that they hate you.
wexlackxamity (11:04:08 PM) : not they
wexlackxamity (11:04:11 PM) : andrea
wexlackxamity (11:04:12 PM) : not
wexlackxamity (11:04:14 PM) : not hate me
wexlackxamity (11:04:15 PM) : just
wexlackxamity (11:04:28 PM) : how can you say you hope i get raped???
"chelsea cole " (11:04:47 PM) : andrea is mad because you were rude to her on the phone last night/this morning.
wexlackxamity (11:05:00 PM) : what?
wexlackxamity (11:05:03 PM) : oh god
wexlackxamity (11:05:04 PM) : how?
"chelsea cole " (11:05:09 PM) : she told you to come home.
"chelsea cole " (11:05:09 PM) : twice.
"chelsea cole " (11:05:19 PM) : you're at andrea's, you follow her rules.
wexlackxamity (11:05:55 PM) : i didnt know she actually cared, i thought she was asking me if i was going to or not! and i kept telling him i thought we should go and he took a while because we got stopped
wexlackxamity (11:06:11 PM) : the second time she called i was on the way out of the house
wexlackxamity (11:06:32 PM) : why cant she tell me this?
wexlackxamity (11:06:33 PM) : i mean
wexlackxamity (11:06:35 PM) : im not psychic
wexlackxamity (11:06:49 PM) : she can tell me why shes mad, instead of trashing me on a public blog
"chelsea cole " (11:07:07 PM) : she was being mean to you on the phone.
"chelsea cole " (11:07:09 PM) : you just didn't notice.
wexlackxamity (11:07:15 PM) : what did she say
wexlackxamity (11:07:16 PM) : ?
"chelsea cole " (11:07:19 PM) : hold on.
wexlackxamity (11:07:23 PM) : okay
"chelsea cole " (11:09:55 PM) : well.
"chelsea cole " (11:10:04 PM) : she was like "it does not take you 20 minutes to walk from here to here."
wexlackxamity (11:10:09 PM) : the only reason i didnt come home right away is because she didnt say she wanted me to, it was a miscommunication i guess. i took it the wrong way, obviously, and i didnt mean to piss her off or anything. and from what i remember from the phone conversation, i didnt notice because she talks to me like that all the time. so i suppose if thats what andrea being mean to me is, then shes mean to me quite often.
wexlackxamity (11:10:18 PM) : what i got from it was
wexlackxamity (11:10:36 PM) : are you coming home soon or are you staying out? not, you need to get home
"chelsea cole " (11:11:25 PM) : not what she said.
wexlackxamity (11:11:32 PM) : what DID she say then?
"chelsea cole " (11:11:39 PM) : "where are you?"
"chelsea cole " (11:11:45 PM) : "it's almost curfew."
"chelsea cole " (11:11:50 PM) : "you need to get home soon."
"chelsea cole " (11:11:57 PM) : "twenty minutes? okay."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:00 PM) : second call.
wexlackxamity (11:12:01 PM) : i did tell him i wanted to be back before curfew
"chelsea cole " (11:12:08 PM) : "it's been twenty minutes."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:17 PM) : "i don't care, get back now."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:26 PM) : "it does not take this long to walk back!"
wexlackxamity (11:12:27 PM) : i think i didnt have the phone to my ear because i didnt hear that
wexlackxamity (11:12:35 PM) : i think dillon had the phone
wexlackxamity (11:13:04 PM) : because if id heard that i wouldnt have done it the way i did
"chelsea cole " (11:13:22 PM) : andrea thinks that you're going to get hurt with him.
wexlackxamity (11:13:25 PM) : i know
wexlackxamity (11:13:34 PM) : and from what i understand, she hopes i do
wexlackxamity (11:13:37 PM) : what shes not getting though
wexlackxamity (11:13:46 PM) : is that i have no emotional attachment to him
"chelsea cole " (11:13:55 PM) : except.
wexlackxamity (11:13:59 PM) : except?
"chelsea cole " (11:14:39 PM) : why were you blushing when you two kissed?
"chelsea cole " (11:14:43 PM) : why were you leaning on him?
wexlackxamity (11:14:49 PM) : because he kissed me in front of all my friends!
"chelsea cole " (11:14:50 PM) : why were you listening to music?
wexlackxamity (11:14:57 PM) : because he was there, its a fling
wexlackxamity (11:15:02 PM) : im not taking it seriously
wexlackxamity (11:15:05 PM) : but its nice to be liked
wexlackxamity (11:15:21 PM) : hes the first person since tom (i dont count john) to pay any attention to me
"chelsea cole " (11:15:36 PM) : so you're trying to be the player when you're going to be played.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:40 PM) : andrea's telling you to get out now.
wexlackxamity (11:15:40 PM) : im not going to take it anywhere, its not like im going to have sex with him
"chelsea cole " (11:15:44 PM) : um hi.
wexlackxamity (11:15:45 PM) : hmm
"chelsea cole " (11:15:47 PM) : um.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:48 PM) : seriously.
wexlackxamity (11:15:49 PM) : what?
"chelsea cole " (11:15:51 PM) : it's dylan.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:54 PM) : *dillon.
wexlackxamity (11:16:24 PM) : i dont really know what to say
"chelsea cole " (11:16:40 PM) : andrea is trying to protect you
"chelsea cole " (11:16:49 PM) : she doesn't want you to get hurt.
"chelsea cole " (11:16:54 PM) : by you not following her advice
"chelsea cole " (11:16:58 PM) : it is a slap in the face.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:02 PM) : you're telling her that she doesn't know
"chelsea cole " (11:17:05 PM) : it's different
"chelsea cole " (11:17:08 PM) : that it's just a fling
"chelsea cole " (11:17:12 PM) : that it's for your enjoyment.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:16 PM) : thing is.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:18 PM) : it's not.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:20 PM) : it's for him.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:33 PM) : he wants something easy. he looked at you and pegged you for what you're not.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:43 PM) : you were wearing shorts.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:44 PM) : you're pretty.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:46 PM) : skinny.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:51 PM) : single.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:07 PM) : you're going to get hurt in some way, she knows it, she tries to tell you, to help you, and you pretty much ignored her.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:14 PM) : she cares for you and she shows it through protection and guidance.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:18 PM) : i know what is right and what is wrong.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:28 PM) : i won't say anything unless you people ask me.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:33 PM) : i won't tell you what to do.
wexlackxamity (11:18:33 PM) : i know, i know...youre right.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:43 PM) : it's your life.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:45 PM) : you figure it out.
wexlackxamity (11:18:52 PM) : i hate this. i know im not doing the smartest thing
wexlackxamity (11:18:56 PM) : shes right.
wexlackxamity (11:18:59 PM) : its just really hard
wexlackxamity (11:19:17 PM) : because its like im walking away from being...i dont know, cared for
wexlackxamity (11:19:21 PM) : even though i know
wexlackxamity (11:19:26 PM) : its not like that at all
wexlackxamity (11:19:27 PM) : ldksjfdlskfjdsf
"chelsea cole " (11:19:32 PM) : i did that to a boy.
"chelsea cole " (11:19:33 PM) : twice.
wexlackxamity (11:19:45 PM) : did what
wexlackxamity (11:19:45 PM) : ?
"chelsea cole " (11:19:54 PM) : wanted someone to tell me that they love me and care for me.
"chelsea cole " (11:20:00 PM) : needed to have someone there because i was hurting.
wexlackxamity (11:20:13 PM) : the thing is, i get the feeling andrea doesnt like me way too often for me to feel like she DOES care for me.
wexlackxamity (11:20:24 PM) : because shes right, i dont belong
"chelsea cole " (11:20:50 PM) : you are still figuring out who you are.
"chelsea cole " (11:20:53 PM) : andrea has figured herself out.
"chelsea cole " (11:21:06 PM) : so has katie.
"chelsea cole " (11:21:09 PM) : i can pretend that i have.
wexlackxamity (11:21:59 PM) : by "figured themselves out" what do you mean? because the only change ive seen lately in katie is the drug thing.
wexlackxamity (11:23:17 PM) : i dont know. i feel like im trying to hold on to something thats not there anymore, because the truth is they dont treat me like a treasured friend or anything. they treat me like a child every time i say something that if anyone else said would be taken differently. i havent felt like they actually give a shit if they stay friends with me lately, like, at ALL. which, yeah, hurts/
wexlackxamity (11:25:47 PM) : and of course, theres the whole every time im with them at the same time i am completely shut out and ignored
wexlackxamity (11:25:59 PM) : which is why i left this afternoon, although today it was probably fully on purpose
"chelsea cole " (11:29:06 PM) : they have themselves pegged for who they are and who they want to be.
"chelsea cole " (11:29:08 PM) : they're not changing.
wexlackxamity (11:29:44 PM) : so because im still figuring out who i want to be, i get treated like a child and excluded?
"chelsea cole " (11:30:08 PM) : it's not that you're not a set personality.
"chelsea cole " (11:30:20 PM) : it's the fact that you seem unwilling to accept the advice of others.
wexlackxamity (11:30:40 PM) : accepting advice and following it are two completely different things
wexlackxamity (11:30:48 PM) : and i do intend on following her advice, i really do
wexlackxamity (11:31:02 PM) : it was just...today, i NEEDED that
"chelsea cole " (11:31:05 PM) : good intentions and bad reflexes, right?
wexlackxamity (11:31:09 PM) : yeah/
"chelsea cole " (11:31:25 PM) : then i'm okay with what you're doing.
wexlackxamity (11:31:31 PM) : thank you.
"chelsea cole " (11:31:56 PM) : i would recommend telling andrea that you need someone right now, and he was the first to pop up.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:00 PM) : that's how matt was for me.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:04 PM) : it's why i'm all SDFL:KDSJ ALEX.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:08 PM) : which i'm sure it gets annoying.
wexlackxamity (11:32:35 PM) : thats exactly what it was
wexlackxamity (11:32:50 PM) : ive been lonely since i got completely ditched in the beginning of july
wexlackxamity (11:32:51 PM) : i mean
wexlackxamity (11:33:02 PM) : i havent even had any one there to support me friendship wise
wexlackxamity (11:33:07 PM) : and then bam, guy
wexlackxamity (11:33:22 PM) : i just....i guess i needed something to balance myself on
"chelsea cole " (11:33:35 PM) : yes.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:40 PM) : keep him until you're balanced.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:53 PM) : but don't let him get anything past a friend with benefits.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:56 PM) : sounds bad.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:58 PM) : trust me.
wexlackxamity (11:34:00 PM) : i dont want to let him get past that
"chelsea cole " (11:34:07 PM) : good intentions.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:10 PM) : bad reflexes.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:34 PM) : if he tries to hurt you i hurt him, though.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:38 PM) : so.
wexlackxamity (11:34:40 PM) : haha
wexlackxamity (11:34:46 PM) : thats okay.
