"chelsea cole " (11:01:26 PM) : don't assume.
wexlackxamity (11:01:33 PM) : hmm
wexlackxamity (11:01:34 PM) : then idk
wexlackxamity (11:01:36 PM) : but
wexlackxamity (11:01:46 PM) : has she always disliked me and jsut refused to tell me ?
"chelsea cole " (11:03:14 PM) : you need to stop assuming things, liz.
wexlackxamity (11:03:41 PM) : can you explain that?
wexlackxamity (11:03:42 PM) : like
wexlackxamity (11:03:53 PM) : im 100% sure that was directed at me
"chelsea cole " (11:03:57 PM) : you assume that they hate you.
wexlackxamity (11:04:08 PM) : not they
wexlackxamity (11:04:11 PM) : andrea
wexlackxamity (11:04:12 PM) : not
wexlackxamity (11:04:14 PM) : not hate me
wexlackxamity (11:04:15 PM) : just
wexlackxamity (11:04:28 PM) : how can you say you hope i get raped???
"chelsea cole " (11:04:47 PM) : andrea is mad because you were rude to her on the phone last night/this morning.
wexlackxamity (11:05:00 PM) : what?
wexlackxamity (11:05:03 PM) : oh god
wexlackxamity (11:05:04 PM) : how?
"chelsea cole " (11:05:09 PM) : she told you to come home.
"chelsea cole " (11:05:09 PM) : twice.
"chelsea cole " (11:05:19 PM) : you're at andrea's, you follow her rules.
wexlackxamity (11:05:55 PM) : i didnt know she actually cared, i thought she was asking me if i was going to or not! and i kept telling him i thought we should go and he took a while because we got stopped
wexlackxamity (11:06:11 PM) : the second time she called i was on the way out of the house
wexlackxamity (11:06:32 PM) : why cant she tell me this?
wexlackxamity (11:06:33 PM) : i mean
wexlackxamity (11:06:35 PM) : im not psychic
wexlackxamity (11:06:49 PM) : she can tell me why shes mad, instead of trashing me on a public blog
"chelsea cole " (11:07:07 PM) : she was being mean to you on the phone.
"chelsea cole " (11:07:09 PM) : you just didn't notice.
wexlackxamity (11:07:15 PM) : what did she say
wexlackxamity (11:07:16 PM) : ?
"chelsea cole " (11:07:19 PM) : hold on.
wexlackxamity (11:07:23 PM) : okay
"chelsea cole " (11:09:55 PM) : well.
"chelsea cole " (11:10:04 PM) : she was like "it does not take you 20 minutes to walk from here to here."
wexlackxamity (11:10:09 PM) : the only reason i didnt come home right away is because she didnt say she wanted me to, it was a miscommunication i guess. i took it the wrong way, obviously, and i didnt mean to piss her off or anything. and from what i remember from the phone conversation, i didnt notice because she talks to me like that all the time. so i suppose if thats what andrea being mean to me is, then shes mean to me quite often.
wexlackxamity (11:10:18 PM) : what i got from it was
wexlackxamity (11:10:36 PM) : are you coming home soon or are you staying out? not, you need to get home
"chelsea cole " (11:11:25 PM) : not what she said.
wexlackxamity (11:11:32 PM) : what DID she say then?
"chelsea cole " (11:11:39 PM) : "where are you?"
"chelsea cole " (11:11:45 PM) : "it's almost curfew."
"chelsea cole " (11:11:50 PM) : "you need to get home soon."
"chelsea cole " (11:11:57 PM) : "twenty minutes? okay."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:00 PM) : second call.
wexlackxamity (11:12:01 PM) : i did tell him i wanted to be back before curfew
"chelsea cole " (11:12:08 PM) : "it's been twenty minutes."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:17 PM) : "i don't care, get back now."
"chelsea cole " (11:12:26 PM) : "it does not take this long to walk back!"
wexlackxamity (11:12:27 PM) : i think i didnt have the phone to my ear because i didnt hear that
wexlackxamity (11:12:35 PM) : i think dillon had the phone
wexlackxamity (11:13:04 PM) : because if id heard that i wouldnt have done it the way i did
"chelsea cole " (11:13:22 PM) : andrea thinks that you're going to get hurt with him.
wexlackxamity (11:13:25 PM) : i know
wexlackxamity (11:13:34 PM) : and from what i understand, she hopes i do
wexlackxamity (11:13:37 PM) : what shes not getting though
wexlackxamity (11:13:46 PM) : is that i have no emotional attachment to him
"chelsea cole " (11:13:55 PM) : except.
wexlackxamity (11:13:59 PM) : except?
"chelsea cole " (11:14:39 PM) : why were you blushing when you two kissed?
"chelsea cole " (11:14:43 PM) : why were you leaning on him?
wexlackxamity (11:14:49 PM) : because he kissed me in front of all my friends!
"chelsea cole " (11:14:50 PM) : why were you listening to music?
wexlackxamity (11:14:57 PM) : because he was there, its a fling
wexlackxamity (11:15:02 PM) : im not taking it seriously
wexlackxamity (11:15:05 PM) : but its nice to be liked
wexlackxamity (11:15:21 PM) : hes the first person since tom (i dont count john) to pay any attention to me
"chelsea cole " (11:15:36 PM) : so you're trying to be the player when you're going to be played.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:40 PM) : andrea's telling you to get out now.
wexlackxamity (11:15:40 PM) : im not going to take it anywhere, its not like im going to have sex with him
"chelsea cole " (11:15:44 PM) : um hi.
wexlackxamity (11:15:45 PM) : hmm
"chelsea cole " (11:15:47 PM) : um.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:48 PM) : seriously.
wexlackxamity (11:15:49 PM) : what?
"chelsea cole " (11:15:51 PM) : it's dylan.
"chelsea cole " (11:15:54 PM) : *dillon.
wexlackxamity (11:16:24 PM) : i dont really know what to say
"chelsea cole " (11:16:40 PM) : andrea is trying to protect you
"chelsea cole " (11:16:49 PM) : she doesn't want you to get hurt.
"chelsea cole " (11:16:54 PM) : by you not following her advice
"chelsea cole " (11:16:58 PM) : it is a slap in the face.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:02 PM) : you're telling her that she doesn't know
"chelsea cole " (11:17:05 PM) : it's different
"chelsea cole " (11:17:08 PM) : that it's just a fling
"chelsea cole " (11:17:12 PM) : that it's for your enjoyment.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:16 PM) : thing is.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:18 PM) : it's not.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:20 PM) : it's for him.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:33 PM) : he wants something easy. he looked at you and pegged you for what you're not.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:43 PM) : you were wearing shorts.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:44 PM) : you're pretty.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:46 PM) : skinny.
"chelsea cole " (11:17:51 PM) : single.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:07 PM) : you're going to get hurt in some way, she knows it, she tries to tell you, to help you, and you pretty much ignored her.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:14 PM) : she cares for you and she shows it through protection and guidance.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:18 PM) : i know what is right and what is wrong.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:28 PM) : i won't say anything unless you people ask me.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:33 PM) : i won't tell you what to do.
wexlackxamity (11:18:33 PM) : i know, i know...youre right.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:43 PM) : it's your life.
"chelsea cole " (11:18:45 PM) : you figure it out.
wexlackxamity (11:18:52 PM) : i hate this. i know im not doing the smartest thing
wexlackxamity (11:18:56 PM) : shes right.
wexlackxamity (11:18:59 PM) : its just really hard
wexlackxamity (11:19:17 PM) : because its like im walking away from being...i dont know, cared for
wexlackxamity (11:19:21 PM) : even though i know
wexlackxamity (11:19:26 PM) : its not like that at all
wexlackxamity (11:19:27 PM) : ldksjfdlskfjdsf
"chelsea cole " (11:19:32 PM) : i did that to a boy.
"chelsea cole " (11:19:33 PM) : twice.
wexlackxamity (11:19:45 PM) : did what
wexlackxamity (11:19:45 PM) : ?
"chelsea cole " (11:19:54 PM) : wanted someone to tell me that they love me and care for me.
"chelsea cole " (11:20:00 PM) : needed to have someone there because i was hurting.
wexlackxamity (11:20:13 PM) : the thing is, i get the feeling andrea doesnt like me way too often for me to feel like she DOES care for me.
wexlackxamity (11:20:24 PM) : because shes right, i dont belong
"chelsea cole " (11:20:50 PM) : you are still figuring out who you are.
"chelsea cole " (11:20:53 PM) : andrea has figured herself out.
"chelsea cole " (11:21:06 PM) : so has katie.
"chelsea cole " (11:21:09 PM) : i can pretend that i have.
wexlackxamity (11:21:59 PM) : by "figured themselves out" what do you mean? because the only change ive seen lately in katie is the drug thing.
wexlackxamity (11:23:17 PM) : i dont know. i feel like im trying to hold on to something thats not there anymore, because the truth is they dont treat me like a treasured friend or anything. they treat me like a child every time i say something that if anyone else said would be taken differently. i havent felt like they actually give a shit if they stay friends with me lately, like, at ALL. which, yeah, hurts/
wexlackxamity (11:25:47 PM) : and of course, theres the whole every time im with them at the same time i am completely shut out and ignored
wexlackxamity (11:25:59 PM) : which is why i left this afternoon, although today it was probably fully on purpose
"chelsea cole " (11:29:06 PM) : they have themselves pegged for who they are and who they want to be.
"chelsea cole " (11:29:08 PM) : they're not changing.
wexlackxamity (11:29:44 PM) : so because im still figuring out who i want to be, i get treated like a child and excluded?
"chelsea cole " (11:30:08 PM) : it's not that you're not a set personality.
"chelsea cole " (11:30:20 PM) : it's the fact that you seem unwilling to accept the advice of others.
wexlackxamity (11:30:40 PM) : accepting advice and following it are two completely different things
wexlackxamity (11:30:48 PM) : and i do intend on following her advice, i really do
wexlackxamity (11:31:02 PM) : it was just...today, i NEEDED that
"chelsea cole " (11:31:05 PM) : good intentions and bad reflexes, right?
wexlackxamity (11:31:09 PM) : yeah/
"chelsea cole " (11:31:25 PM) : then i'm okay with what you're doing.
wexlackxamity (11:31:31 PM) : thank you.
"chelsea cole " (11:31:56 PM) : i would recommend telling andrea that you need someone right now, and he was the first to pop up.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:00 PM) : that's how matt was for me.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:04 PM) : it's why i'm all SDFL:KDSJ ALEX.
"chelsea cole " (11:32:08 PM) : which i'm sure it gets annoying.
wexlackxamity (11:32:35 PM) : thats exactly what it was
wexlackxamity (11:32:50 PM) : ive been lonely since i got completely ditched in the beginning of july
wexlackxamity (11:32:51 PM) : i mean
wexlackxamity (11:33:02 PM) : i havent even had any one there to support me friendship wise
wexlackxamity (11:33:07 PM) : and then bam, guy
wexlackxamity (11:33:22 PM) : i just....i guess i needed something to balance myself on
"chelsea cole " (11:33:35 PM) : yes.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:40 PM) : keep him until you're balanced.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:53 PM) : but don't let him get anything past a friend with benefits.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:56 PM) : sounds bad.
"chelsea cole " (11:33:58 PM) : trust me.
wexlackxamity (11:34:00 PM) : i dont want to let him get past that
"chelsea cole " (11:34:07 PM) : good intentions.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:10 PM) : bad reflexes.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:34 PM) : if he tries to hurt you i hurt him, though.
"chelsea cole " (11:34:38 PM) : so.
wexlackxamity (11:34:40 PM) : haha
wexlackxamity (11:34:46 PM) : thats okay.
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I think Chelsea has put things in a way that I could never do. I mean, I would say I'm generally good with words, but my point doesn't always come across so clear.
Anyway, you need to calm down about half of the things I was talking about in my own blog because only the one part was actually directed at you. Every time I spaced the paragraph, I was talking about someone else.
I didn't mean that you were imposing, I was actually talking about Chelsea. I love her dearly but sometimes she makes herself a little bit too at-home. I really wasn't expecting to sleep in my room, but she claimed my bed. And well, it was my bed, so I wasn't about to just give up on it, so we both slept in it. Well, I don't know if you noticed, but Chelsea is much larger than I and she takes up far more room on the bed. But not only that, she took up the room that was supposed to be mine. There were actually several points in the night where she was laying diagonally across the bed and giving me no room to move. She also wouldn't move over when I tried to give myself more room. I credit it mostly with the fact that I'm generally very passive and try not to do things that would be considered rude- I've got this insane sense of manners.
I just always had it in my head that you are a guest. You don't live there, so don't act like you do.
Anyways, that's what that was about. The whole "I wish you would get raped" thing, is because I was mad at you because you don't listen to advice. I even told Katie that I really felt like your mother because I was telling you what to do.
I'm sorry for the miscommunication as well, it's mostly my fault.
lolz. You keep changing the colors and that last part of the conversation wasn't there the first time I read it.
Lulz, I love you too Liz. What did you need Dakota's number for last night?
And by the way, I tried to call him earlier and it was some black girl's number. I was sooo confused. And then when she didn't pick up (I just heard the voice mail and figured it was some black chick's) I hung up and she called me back saying, "DID SUMUN CALL?!"
"what?"
"DIYID SUMUN CALL ME?!?1"
"Yeah, but I thought it was someone else's nu-"
click.
So I guess I'll have to get his new number or whatever. I just want to know what was up with that.
Anyway, the reason I'm leaving you a comment on this post is because I didn't want someone to read our conversation in them. I wanted to tell you, and only you in confidence, that my post was about Joe.
I mean, me and him were never really close friends and it's not like I thought we might be, but when Katie listed off her schedule to him online, she asked if he wanted to know mine as well and he said, "No. Please stop. I really really don't care about her. I'm gonna go."
I mean, Katie said that that was really mean of him, but I mean, it really did kind of cut deep with me. I mean, he doesn't have to like me, but he doesn't have to be a dick. It's not like he didn't know that I was right there. So I figured that if he hated me that much I would never talk to him ever again.
Now that I look back on it too, I realize how much of a dick he was before this to me. I mean, he told like, everyone that he never bothered to ever save my number in his phone and I've called him enough that he should.
I don't know, it just really pissed me off that he would act like that.
But yeah, about Maddie, I know she can be bitchy around Allison because both them and Lizzie were in my French class last year too. It's a real fucking pain in the ass. A lot of time our class would get in trouble and like, actually have to do all of our work because they wouldn't shut up. I really just cannot wait until class. @_@
Lolz and sorry I said, "I mean..." so much in that last comment. I didn't realize that i had typed it so many times and I know how annoying it is.
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