Did you hear me call your name? Did you hear me call ....

Or were your thoughts just too loud, or were your thoughts just loud enough for you to miss it?

I thought you'd be listening
A little more intently for me.
But I'll be here when you're ready.
Until then, just be still and breathe.
But I was screaming.
I was screaming.

Everything they said about you
Everything they've known was wrong.
The outside doesn't feel
What the inside knows is real.



Un. You're way too selfish half the time. You dont like to do things unless you get something out of it. You interrupt people constantly, convinced that what you have to say is that much more important, and you often wont listen if it doesnt directly affect you in some way. You can be way too self-righteous; no one else can every be right about anything unless they have the same opinion as you. No one can ever have a problem with you without it turning into a fight, because you're like me; you cant take criticism. You're not as mature as you like to think you are; not that youre immature. You just arent as superior to people who dont necessarily agree with you about things or live their lives the same way as you think you are.

Deux. You're often a hypocrite. You pass judgment on people and then turn around and do the same thing. In your mind, its okay for you to judge people and sometimes make fun of them, but if anyone else does it theres a chance they'll get reprimanded for being shallow and mean. You criticize people for being stupid and not thinking, but you do too. You have a very large superiority complex, and you like to show it off. You seem to view yourself as above people. You'd think the experiences with your mom and sister would make you wiser, make you take more precaution, but your pride gets in the way of your rationality. Your mom offered you the protection you definitely need, but your pride prevented you from taking it. That was a very poor choice; it could cost you a lot later, because condoms are not fail-proof. They break, they have holes, they come off. I think youd been going farther down a bad path, and from what youve told me lately you seem to be coming back a bit, but im still worried about you.

Trois. You like to rub your intelligence in peoples faces, and it alienates you. It makes people view you as stuck up and one who thinks shes better than them. You're very honest when talking to poeple about their problems and whats wrong with them, which can be good, but sometimes the assertiveness makes people back down. You're very cryptic and secretive, which serves to alienate you further. If you want to be understood ( i am not sure if you do), maybe being more open would make more people understand you.

Quatre. I dont get how you can be so shallow. You're all show.

Cinq. You've become more real lately. you seem to have developed a more realistic view of yourself and i think youve grown up a bit. You do what i do, though; every new obsession you throw yourself into. You dont seem to get hurt when it ends, though, for which I'm grateful. You still can be really bitchy when you're focused on something or in a bad mood, and you often don't do things unless you get something out of it. You still like to push around your friends like they're your property sometimes. Think about that when you're around Alexandra, because you've been making her angry lately.

Six. BE MORE ASSERTIVE.

Sept. I seriously think we share a brain or something. We're like the same person, even more lately than we were before, as far back as that goes. Just had to throw that in there.

Huit. I think lately you've crossed the line to where people just dont pay attention anymore. The melodrama gets annoying.

Neuf. I have genuinely stopped caring about you and trying to understand your motives for getting pissed.

Dix. I think we get along better lately than ever before. Ive started thinking of you as an actual friend. Sometimes I wonder if you feel the same though, because you get in those pissy moods that I dont understand.

Onze. I truly believe that you are the worst excuse for a person I have ever had the misfortune to meet. I dont get how Katie can defend you after the way you treat her, especially lately. I will never, ever forgive you for what youve done to me and the way you treat certain friends of mine.

Douze. You change your mind very quickly. I think you get way too worked up over things and dont have any idea what you want. You throw yourself into things too far. You make bad choices that I wish youd think about for once. But I accept them because I know theres no changing you. Maybe one day youll think and realize what you do is wrong.

thats what was on my mind. im not saying i dont have any of these problems, so dont tell me in being a hypocrite.