dont you give me pretty words
okay. just to clear the confusion (because from that fight the other day ive gathered that there is some): my decision i made upon making myself single was NOT to give up guys. that would be completely ridiculous, irrational, and unlike myself...not to mention painful. what i decided was that, since every time i become NOT single i become unhappy and complain and get sick of the guy relatively quickly, i should listen to myself for once. i dont like having a boyfriend. i do like boys. i have no problem with hanging out with guys. and flirting with guys. and going out places with guys. and doing stuff with guys.
i just cant take the comittment. so the obvious choice seems to be to not seek it out. im not going to have a boyfriend for a while, even if i find someone i do want to date, because it will just kill it. it never works out with me, mentally or physically. i am not the type whom relationships help feel secure. they stifle me and make me feel im missing something, not to mention guilty and always trying to make sure im not doing anything that can be considered hurtful or cheating. i dont want to be responsible for anyone else's unhappiness. so i wont get serious with anyone to the point where they can call me their girlfriend, and ill be fine.
there are all those dissenters who think im full of shit and wont last a month. ill show you, bitches. i think i mightttt know myself a little bit better than you do. considering, you know, i am myself and when i actually set my mind to something i am in fact capable of sticking to it. :]
on to another topic - im currently talking a lot to the most confusing person ive ever met. i think it stresses me out sometimes. i dont really want to go into that though so we'll leave it at that :]
my wii fit told me i lost five pounds since last time i used it. i think it miscalculated.
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