It's the same game I play till the bend becomes the break
i dont usually feel the need to explain myself, especially online. but hey. i dont know who im directing this at, really.
I know a lot of you think I rushed stuff lately and you all look down on me all maternally and worry about me. I would just like you to know it pisses me the fuck off cause you are in no position to judge me, half of you having rushed things yourself and being unwilling to admit it or see it. I wasnt being shallow. its never been a big deal for me like it is for other people our age, its not something i worry over. I just kind of did what felt right for me, and none of you are me to tell me whats right for me. Thats my job, and I would appreciate it if you would let me be in charge of that. Believe it or not, I know what I'm getting myself into. I'm not oblivious. And again, you are in no position to tell me I am oblivious, because you are not better than me and are no more apt at deciding when I'm making good or bad choices than anyone else. It's not like you're old and wise.
I've decided that its not being a whore when you do things with someone you barely know. It's being proactive. Cause really, all relationships depend on how you get along sexually. If you're not attracted to each other, it will never work. That's called friendship. So why waste your time getting to know each other on that deep and personal level if you don't know if you'll have to move on later? Whatever.
I'm happy lately. :] Things are going well. Even with my parents. And I feel like I'm able to get a long with girls again. I've been talking to a lot, gotten pretty close to three new people. It's odd, going from all guy friends to all girl friends with assorted guy casual friends. All my males left me:[ and the ones who didn't, I don't really feel anything with that makes me want to know them. With the one obvious major exception. I'm not saying I don't want guy friends, I'm saying that the ones I have I don't feel are friends.
Does anyone know where my copy of The Notebook (the book, not the movie version) is? I made a deal with Dom that if he reads it, I will allow myself to be forced to watch Twilight. But I don't know who borrowed it.
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Just so you know, I don't look down on you for anything you've done so far. Dom's a good kid and I'm really not worried about you getting hurt at all.
Honestly, I think it's just the right time for this all to happen.
And not to make you feel bad or anything, but I could really care less about the things you do.
I know you weren't but I still thought you should know.
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