Let me in from the rain, don't you let me go again

let the water run down my face

okay natalie taylor. i dont know if you read my blog but i will oblige you and...idk, follow through with your request.

10 things about me

1. im such a hypocrite. i dont bother concerning myself with the fact that i criticize other people when i do the same thing. i ignore the fact that i will get mad at people for doing things that i myself do. also, my most frequent line is "hah i am such a hypocrite." i often tell people they shouldn't do things, then turn around and do something along the same lines. i laugh at peoples' mistakes and make the same ones. i get upset when people don't do things, but i am just as apathetic/lazy.

2. i'm kind of a bitch. ill be 'mad' at people just to avoid talking to them. take tom, for example. i was walking down the hall today with john and brian and we pass tom. john and brian and tom all say hi. i say absolutely nothing, don't even look at him. i was so mean to him towards the end of our relationship, even though he was giving me all his time and all his 'love' (dont know how true that was, look how fast he bounced back), and i just treated him like shit. then i dumped him and im acting like he dumped me. i know i dont regret it at all, i didnt like him anymore, i just dont feel like talking to him. im mean to people who dont do anything to me, whenever i just dont want to talk to them. i make fun of people who ive gotten over fights with behind their backs at times...not that much though, and not my close friends. im a bitch but not to the people who matter to me (of whom consist about 10 people, tops.)

3. i get very apathetic when i get randomly depressed. i can lay on my bed for hours at a time doing nothing. i dont care when i insult people at these times. i will insult anyone and everyone on accident, simply by paying them no attention when deserved, not caring about their problems, etc. this especially happens during my period. pms makes me horrid.

4. even though i do the above, i will never, ever ignore my cell phone. i cannot do it. ive tried. i carry it into the bathroom when i take a shower, for heavens sake. this stems from my fear of being secluded. i am afraid of people trying to contact me and not being able to. i cannot stand not talking to my friends, because when i have no contact with them i get anxious.

5. i love my music. i claim not to like rap but i love eminem. i love alternative and rock. i break headphones often because my ipod is attached to my body and its loud. 24/7. if i did not have it i probably would have committed suicide by now.

6. i cannot stand people walking all over me. if someone takes advantage of me or makes a fool out of me, i will not get over it for AGES. i cant stand feeling inferior. i have such a superiority complex sometimes. i will go into full bitch mode just to make you feel bad if you try to own me.

7. i am the least photogenic person you will ever meet.

8. i wish i was a mermaid. like, a disney mermaid. i wanted to be ariel from the age of like..whenever that movie came out till i was old enough to realize it wasnt going to happen. (theres a part of me that is still hopeful however)

9. i am terrified of all insects and insect-like creatures (aka spiders) except for butterflies. my biggest fear is bugs crawling all over my body. sometimes i have nightmares where the room im in is covered in bugs. *shudders*

10. i act high enough on my own. i dont need drugs. nicotine disgusts me. i dont mind alcohol so much, but i hate how people act when theyre high on something. it scares me so badly.

i could add more but this is 10. maybe ill continue later.